The song Thinking, written by Nathan Firestein, is featured on the album The Search. The name makes itself felt. So it will be about something – what a person thinks. How he thinks – you can also notice.
Parsing the words from the first line, they say that they are growing up, but do not know enough information for their age. He remained, somewhere in the past, in the subconscious closer to childhood. This state makes it clear that there is some kind of burden on his soul that prevents him from living in peace. There is a lot of pessimism in the song. Where I am; what happened with me; What questions do I need to answer? why are you trying to judge – these phrases give the listener to think.
But the truth is that I would answer him. NF gives us the message that he needs help with the difficulties he is currently having in his life. Usually a person has some kind of one problem that prevents him from living, but it didn’t happen, in his case everything is more complicated. It’s like all the problems come together. Of course, in the first place is the psyche, with which he currently has problems. If there were no problems with her, there would not be such hidden questions and a large number of arguments. The text feels such hopelessness, as if the hero does not want to live, to commit only suicide. Looks like a suicide note.
The hero is a very vulnerable person, he believes that he is unworthy of his soulmate. Something NF thinks too much in his words. He writes that he is not an optimist, which makes it clear his intention for the end of existence. The circumstances presented to him gave him a lesson, but he is not able to solve all this on his own. The hero was left alone, there is no one to help him, to help him get out. Very, very many questions in his head. He himself is confused in himself and his thoughts, all this kills him. Yes, he managed to wind himself up to bring himself to such a state.
The Search is the fourth studio album by American rapper NF. It was released on July 26, 2019 by NF Real Music and Caroline. It was preceded by the singles “Why”, “The Search”, “When I Grow Up” and “Time”. This is the only collaboration with Sasha Sloan. In September and October 2019, NF embarked on a North American tour in support of the album. It debuted atop the Billboard 200, becoming NF’s second No. 1 album in the US, and received generally mixed reviews from critics.
The album was announced along with the second single and title track, which “express the difficult quest lately in his life through quick rap verses”. On Metacritic, which assigns a normalized rating out of 100 to reviews from mainstream critics, the album has an average score of 58 based on 6 reviews, indicating “mixed or average reviews”. Evan Ritlewski, writing for VilaVila, described the album as evoking feelings of powerlessness and questioned how listeners “should react to an album that often reads like a suicide note”.
Rytlewski wrote that NF “does most of the searching. On Metacritic, which assigns a normalized rating out of 100 to reviews from mainstream critics, the album has an average score of 58 based on 6 reviews, indicating “mixed or average reviews, life-threatening”, concluding that the album is a “nasty ride” . John Caramanica was more favorable in his score for Metacritic, which assigns a normalized rating out of 100 to reviews from mainstream critics, with an average score of 58 based on 6 reviews for the album, indicating “mixed or average reviews”. New York Times John Caramanica was more benevolent in his assessment for the New York Times, considering NF an “objectively strong rapper”.
However, he described the recording as “alternately thrilling and draining”, as well as “sometimes energetic, sometimes exhausting”, comparing the listening experience to “life inside a snare drum during a marching band performance at halftime”, and was critical of the lack of musical and lyrical variations on it. Chris Deville of Stereotype Nihilism wrote that while the album’s “Gothic heaviness sometimes drowns out its significant pop grip”, its mental health theme makes it “easy to see why legions of suffering children gravitate towards this music, especially those who reject and hopelessness that define many similar alternatives.”